Dun have to be at school 'til 10:00 again. So what do I do? Wake up earlier than normal because yesterday I came home, crashed, and didn't wake up at all. So yeh.
Physical: I'm still tired. Not sure how the fuck that works. Also very not-hungry. Allow me to explain that. Hungry = wanting of food. Not-Hungry = not wanting of food. I feel a wee bit sick to my stomach at the moment, which I am for the most part ignoring. I am also realizing that my knees bang together an awful lot (there's that knock-kneed-ness) and so the inside of my knees are permanently bruised... Which is just weird.
Clothing: Um. I just woke up. T-shirt and underwear. I grabbed my glasses and I always wear my watch (even to bed. I have woken up with watch-prints on my face) but that's it. Cold in here...
Mental: Save for an hour of HTML coding two nights ago, I have avoided actual thought of late. Well, thought of anything I don't normally think about. Is it bad when some of your thoughts are so common that they become reflex actions?
Emotional: Um. Distanced. That whole Michael-following-Emily-around-like-a-pu
So yeh. No real nostalgia. good riddance to bad rubbish. I will miss Michael terribly, and there is no way around that, but it's not as if I ever had a chance to start with, I suppose. (yes, distanced. I don't doubt I will cry and not eat for a week or something at some point this summer, but screw it, at the moment I am going to look at it objectively - he will never care about me like that, and that's just how it is.) If for some reason I absolutely need to see a familiar face, Alan will be in the same city as I am for college. Over the summer I hope to work full-time and have little or no contact with anyone (what for, anyway? I'm horrible at just 'hanging out' with people because I am not used to it and it makes me very uncomfortable.). Then off to San Antonio to become a recluse.
This amuses me to no end.