The Dark-Eyed Mistress of Sweet, Sweet Pain (jenni_the_odd) wrote,
The Dark-Eyed Mistress of Sweet, Sweet Pain
jenni_the_odd

You feel that everything is going against you and you are worn out and exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling. You are trying to protect yourself but at the same time you are hiding your feelings, hoping that by so doing, you can avoid exposing yourself to attack [Yes, those emotion ninjas are crafty]. Hopefully this will give you the chance to get on with your life. Nevertheless, you should be very careful to try to avoid stirring up any opposition which might endanger your plans.

You are in need of rest, some peace and quiet [Naptime!]. You feel the need to be close to that someone special, that someone who can give you that special consideration and unquestioning affection that you seek [That someone is a puppy]. If you don't find that 'special someone' and resolve your problems very soon, you are liable to become extremely introverted and cut yourself off from society [... Oop].

You are confined and trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way out [Read: Gabriel is sitting on you again]. Whatever you seem to do to resolve the problem hasn't worked out [He does not respond to threats]. Fortunately you are able to gain some aspect of relief from someone close to you [Mom calls him to take out the trash. SAVED].

For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself [I am a turtle]. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced [They warned me I couldn't trust Shifty McTraitor, but I was a fool]. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you [Until they say the secret password].

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass [And then it will return next month]. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non-fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself [Again with the turtling]. But that is not the answer. You have the power to succeed, believe in yourself... all is possible to him who believes [I believe I can fly!].
Now, how many of you does that also apply to?
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For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Jenni has left lots of white space on the all four borders of the paper. Jenni fills up just the center area of the page. If this is true, [then Jenni likes to keep a layer of white paper between herself and everyone else] then Jenni has a particular shyness toward people and a fear of moving too fast in any direction. In some cultures, respecting people, rules, and adhering to protocol are ways of life [In other cultures... there is total anarchy and we just kick puppies and eat babies left and right? What culture doesn't have some sort of rules and protocol?]. The right side of the page represents the future and the left side represents the past. Jenni seems a bit stuck in the middle, afraid to take action. Jenni seems to have a fear of looking bad or of crossing boundries. It will be easy to work with Jenni on a team, because Jenni will usually follow the rules. However, this desire to respect the boundries can often be construed as a lack of confidence and people will walk over Jenni if she is not careful.
Jenni has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people [As opposed to using my left foot.].
Jenni is selective when picking friends. She does not trust everyone [They must first answer me these questions three...]. She has a select group of people that are truly close to her, usually two or three. She is careful when choosing her inner circle of friends.

Jenni has a temper. She uses this as a defense mechanism when she doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around her.
One way Jenni punishes herself is self directed sarcasm. She is a very sarcastic person [You don't say.]. Often this sarcasm and "sharp tongued" behavior is directed at herself.
Jenni's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Jenni that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them [Don't be silly. Basing your self-image off one person's opinion is stupid. Hundreds of people have said that.]. Jenni also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure [I have goals?]. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Jenni is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving [Presently, I have achieved the total domination of three pieces of sushi. But perhaps deep within me is the ability to conquer the rest of the sushi on my plate as well! Thank you, handwriting analysis, for helping me see that I can, in fact, eat my lunch.]. All this relates to her self-esteem. Jenni's self-concept is artificially low [I cannot help but think of myself as a pink packet of sweetener now.]. Jenni will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Jenni to plan too far into the future [Forget the future, it is hard enough for Jenni to plan for this evening.]. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions[*booty-dance*]. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Jenni is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.
In reference to Jenni's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Jenni slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Jenni can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip [My mind is a cycling enthusiast].

Jenni will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it! [Who is 'they'? Is this the same 'they' who is always saying things?]
When Jenni expresses an opinion on a issue she will stick to that opinion, and probably will not change her mind. In other words... Jenni is stubborn [No I am not]. When she is wrong about something that she has decided upon, she will have trouble admitting she is wrong [I do not!]. Changing Jenni's mind can be very difficult. Once Jenni makes up her mind, she doesn't want to be confused with the facts! [Shut up!]
Jenni is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others [If paid well]. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes [They are usually too small]. Jenni will be somewhat moody, with lows and highs. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad [If by 'day' you mean '15 minutes']. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Jenni an ambivert [that sounds like some sort of weird fetish slang to me.]. She understands the needs of both types [Everyone needs a kick in the pants]. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Jenni is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions [Look for emotionjenni.com, coming soon!]. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Jenni is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Jenni doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others. Read more about her emotional expressiveness in the section on emotions and slant.
Jenni can be defiant. She sometimes has the attitude that if someone doesn't like it the way she is doing it, then they can just "go to hell!" This trait may reveal itself in a rebellious nature that is always ready to resist forces which she thinks are infringing upon her freedom of action [I am secretly three years old].
Jenni has a desire for attention. People around Jenni will notice this need. She may fulfill this need by a variety of ways depending on her own character [It is called a LiveJournal]. The analysis is from the Handwriting Wizard. Hooray. I have also learned that I have entirely forgotten how to write some letters in cursive. Sad.

A girl in my Bio II class yesterday described me as "sophisticated and studious" when expressing surprise over the fact that I was only 20. Spoken like someone who has never actually spent any length of time with me. I laughed so hard that for several minutes, I could not speak. I have been described with many "s" words*, but they are more along the lines of "spasmodic" "sassy" and "stupid".

Gato is fluffy, purring love. Awww. He is also getting pudgy.

Look how cute they are. Hard to believe they will grow up to be the incarnation of REPTILLIAN POINTY-TOOTHED DEATH. Lovely critters, but one of the few animals I would not be willing to cuddle under most circumstances**.

I am becoming scaly (another "s" word***!). Well, just my left arm. And by 'scaly' I mean 'dry-skinned'. The skin there is so dry that it no longer stretches at all, like normal skin - it simply wrinkles or tears under stress. My nails do a job on it daily as well, which cannot be helping. My mother insists that it is homonal. I insist I am turning into a lizard. We will see who laughs last when I am skittering up the walls.

*But will it really mighty my penis?
**Those of you currently picturing me petting and cuddling a wildebeest may stop laughing now.
***"What's the difference between you and a mallard with a cold?"
"I don't know."
"One's a sick duck and... I forget how it ends, but your mother's a whore."
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