So, yeah. That will be fun.
Am feeling more hostility towards Valentine's Day than I have in years. I suspect the whole "still not over the ex" thing has a lot to do with that. Also the "crazy hormonal, oh, hello again, period" thing might be having some sort of influence. Just a bit. I want my reproductive system to just GO AWAY, I am SICK of crying all the time (I am so not even kidding. I lose count of how many times a day I tear up, with absolutely nothing triggering it. I loathe this, but I know it will go away when my girlbits stop leaking).
There is a What Not to Wear marathon on TV right now. This pleases me. I love this show, because I am absolutely fascinated by (a) fashion and (b) how to dress different body types. It is also the only makeover-type show I can stomach, since they forego any sort of plastic surgery sort of thing, opting instead for a mantra of dressing the body that you have, dressing it well, and loving it, regardless of size or perceived imperfections. As much of the show as I have watched, I am probably qualified to become a personal wardrobe consultant. And I cry like a baby at the end of every show, without fail, because I cry at everything. Also because the people who get the new wardrobe always seem to come to terms with themselves and their problems with their bodies, and they always seem so happy and self-confident. And it's kind of depressing, since I am pretty sure I will never feel that way. I don't know how much of it is genuine and how much is just saying what the director tells them to say, but it seems realistic, so.
*This is a gross oversimplification, and ignores compeletely the actual conclusion of the study - children who are wanted and whose parent(s) are able to provide and care for them are much more likely to avoid things like gangs, drugs, crime, etc.. Giving women of low socio-economic status access to good information about sexual health, birth control and abortion services, and therefore giving them the ability to take control of how many children they have and when, results in the children they do have being better cared for and less likely to remain in poverty or fall in with drug use, gang problems, and the like. The fact that such a disproportionate percentage of low-income women to whom the study applies are African-American or Hispanic is a seperate issue that needs to be addressed seperately (do not mistake this for dismissal of the subject; it does need to be addressed, desperately). However, I realize I cannot expect a professor at a Catholic university to take a positive stance on a study saying access to birth control and legal abortion can have positive effects for individuals or society in general.