The Dark-Eyed Mistress of Sweet, Sweet Pain (jenni_the_odd) wrote,
The Dark-Eyed Mistress of Sweet, Sweet Pain
jenni_the_odd

And I discover a fun* new thing about myself

So this move thing is definitely happening. In a few days I head to Hattiesburg again to check out potential living-places. In the meantime, I've begun packing, after a fashion. Clothes are mostly packed, sorta. Like many fat people who have been various sizes throughout their lives, I have several tiny wardrobes in about a half-dozen different sizes. Over the years I have periodically thinned out said wardrobes, eliminating things that (a) I finally admit will never look good on me, or (b) I am now too old to wear without looking a bit silly, or (c) are so far out of what could possibly be considered 'fashion' that I'm kind of grateful I can't wear them at the moment because dear lord what was I thinking. The end result is several of those space-saver bags full of clothes I hope to one day wear, assuming my body cooperates. As soon as I added serious workouts to the mix, all weight loss screeched to a halt (the numbers began climbing again, actually) and I became tired all the time. Turns out the most my body will put up with is something like 15-20 minutes of proper cardio a day before it goes "Nope, nope, you don't get to do anything else today." My labs came back showing my thyroid within the normal range at my current dose of meds, so that will stay the same. Hopefully I will gain some muscle and maybe not be so tired from working out, but I'm not gonna lie, I don't expect it. That's not how it usually works for me.

Anyway, I am also packing up my books, which means about equal parts textbooks, fiction/reference books, and comics. Only, due to lending books out over the years and occasionally having them poached by my sister (and then, I think, lent out to her friends), I am missing several of my Strangers in Paradise TPBs. There's also one Runaways that seems to have escaped (HAH I get it), but I'm missing at least four or five SiP books. That is not the problem; I don't lend out anything that I can't bear to lose, and I know that letting someone borrow a book means a high chance I'll never see that book again. And that's okay.
But I just cannot bring myself to pack them in a box without having the complete set. I can't do it. It makes me seriously twitchy.

I think if it were a series I didn't re-read often it would matter less, but I love SiP. I love the artwork, and even the crazy super-dramatic convoluted story**. So now I'm eyeing eBay and Amazon, trying to find the cheapest way to replace them so my stupid brain will shut up and let me pack them in a goddamn box.

You know, when that shrink I saw said I had obsessive/compulsive tendencies, I laughed.

*grumble*

*"Fun", here, means "really fucking annoying"
**Seriously, I don't think Terry Moore would recognize a chronologically-ordered story if it broke into his house and slapped him with a large mouth bass.

This entry was originally posted at http://jenni-the-odd.dreamwidth.org/16957.html. You can comment here or there; it matters only that you comment PLEASE I NEED THE ATTENTION OH GOD PLEASE LOVE ME *SOB*.
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